counseling
Posted on May 12th, 2012
Doing my masters is probably one of the best decisions I’ve ever made, amongst a few that I can remembered of. 
Amazing journey.
Categories: counseling, life
Tagged: counseling
Doing my masters is probably one of the best decisions I’ve ever made, amongst a few that I can remembered of.
Amazing journey.
Tagged: counseling
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I have never been into politics, for the lack of knowledge and interest into country related matters. At least, anything on country and state level, has never interest me.
But this year round, after various exposures, I gave it a shot. I didn’t consider was the event going to be dangerous, because I know my insurance and epf is all good and set, should anything happen to me. So I have really nothing to worry about. I only have today to make this difference for myself, to know that I have done something that I believe I have to do.
It is very clear to me that, if I am to take an aerial shot of today’s group of people in the streets, it would have been a really eye-tearing event. That the people DO care. Very much.
That if each person on the street today, thinks the same, because of the bystander effect, “what could my presence be helpful? I’m just a small little person there”, then the crowd will never be this big. The power of the people is indeed only powerful, if it is by the numbers. The numbers DO add up. It is very very crucial and important for everybody to realise this, for themselves. If everyone of us thinks the same way, then today, would have been disappointing. But it is not.
And to those who might think, there is no results, each time it is the same. I would say, nope it is not. It will never be the same. The result was, Bersih 2.0 was say 100k people (I have no facts on this, do not quote me). This time round, that action from Bersih 2.0 has rippled, and has now resulted in probably 3-4 times more people and supporters. This number will again be rippled, be it directly and indirectly. It is very important.
Another observation was that, whoever started Bersih, has a very very good strategy. It is not about violence, and it is not about protest. BUT, it is about being responsible, for our own country, for ourselves, for our family. The campaign message was so clear, that it invited US to look within ourselves, rather than BLAME the government. It invited us to take actions, by requesting for clean election. It invited us to take action of our own. This has resonated, and created a very very powerful message, so instead of us seating now in front of our computers, we are now asked to search within, and created an insight for ourselves, and created an awareness, and thus created a solution for ourselves too, to not be a hypocrite.
Amazingness.
I also believe there is also possibilities of the political parties who would have also come in from another angle to win the next election etc. I would believe this would disheartened me, being that, I want to be in control of things. But I have to accept that, I have no control, but instead of letting everything just slide, just because I feel that I have no control, I actually have a choice to at least try. Because by trying everything that I have, and can do within my means, I have given it some chance, rather than 0% chance.
Despite also all the incidences, some people getting hurt, police died, inconveniences of traffic, but nevertheless, the sum of the parts is much much greater than looking at the pieces of puzzles individually.
People inspire people. I am greatly inspired today.
Tagged: 428, bersih, bersih 3.0, malaysia
There are some police who believe in the good, but have to carry their duty. There are some police who don’t believe in that. The citizens, some also believe in the good. Some, will also make use of the situation to create chaos. I have to try my best to distinguish and differentiate the distinctions, and not let my (lazy) brains (by shortcuts and associations that I naturally make) to generalise all incidents and cluster everything together. I have to at least try my best to do that for myself to know the difference.
If you ever wandered here, I hope that you feel extremely proud that you stole someone’s phone and that you probably even would say things like, well I should have been more careful, or I deserved it, and well, I won’t miss it if I can lose it, or careless about my belongings etc.
It’s okay.
I wish you good luck, and all the best, and that one day you will realise that how important it is if YOU lose the phone, someone will return it to you. Or if YOU lost someone special in your life, or your family members have cancer, or if YOU have cancer, or if YOU lost a house, or YOUR house is on fire, YOU wish that someone would just very much save you. But I guess, you would probably think that, oh well, you deserve it, and that you should have been more careful, and well, if you could be so careless, you would not miss it all that much either.
cheers.
My major weakness is in organising things in the physical world. And digital. But I have no problems when I do it in script. I suppose it has to do with the fact that I have some sort of unlimited “space” and “boxes” to sort to the detail that I need, and even duplicate or reference it when necessary. Due to this crazy detailing, it becomes a daunting task in real life.
Sucks.
But, someone will sort it for me.
Tagged: organising, sort, weakness
I am a product of many parties of influences. As similar I am to most, I am highly unique and distinctive as well. But neither am I too different from others that says I’m different and I’m not the same. What makes me special, is really, my friends, family, loved ones, and everyone whom I have the opportunity to interact with.
I am the same, and different person that I am.
Kinda love this.
I have been trying to adopt this new mental attitude. There is only show much I can reminisce and plan my future. There is only so much I can anticipate and forecast.
A lot of times my brain would succumb to its most effective way of dealing with things. It looks for patterns and when I encounter similar problems, it will immediately ‘google’ for a solution. And those solutions, are time tested. However a they really effective for current time? Yes it serves as a benchmark, and yes it should work. But, the keyword here is, “it should work”.
That’s what made me miserable when goals are not achieved and things are not done the way it should have been. Or when I tried to justify my fate or destiny or past.
But once I let go and decide that I can try, It feels so exhilarating. I finally understand and see things much clearer and better. To seriously consider what I can do now. To use history as a basis of reference, to forecast and plan my future, and to really live and make decisions based on today’s challenges.
Life is fantastically beautiful at this point, and until it gets muddy and dirty, I’ll sort it out then.
Tagged: Focus on the now
When I spend time focusing on the issues of a person(s), I did not spend time on myself. I spend time talking about things that he/she should have, could have, done. But he/she is NOT me. I am not them either. I cannot put forth into actions of MY thoughts.
Getting tired, I talk about ideas. I talk about possible projects. I talk about things “I CAN” do. The power, returns.
I am empowered, enlightened. And that is why, I insist, and preferred, to talk about ideas, or discuss things that matter.
And I believe that is what Eleanor Roosevelt meant by her quote:
Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people. – Eleanor Roosevelt
Change doesn’t come naturally. it comes only, and only, when a person allows it to.
If I embrace even a slight thought of it, I am working towards it. And the struggles come together, as a package.
Bundled together. I can’t have it clean and just work on one change. It comes all messed up, tangled up even at some point of time, and that can be *quite* a bit of work.
But when the work is completed, there is a next set of change package coming at me full speed. And sometimes, a tornado would love to join the party.
So are the ulcers in the mouth, making all things, more confusing and painful at the same time.
The tug-of-war of love and hate of myself.
Tagged: change